I woke up at eight in the morning. It turns out no matter where I am, I can’t sleep for more than eight hours. But it was a surprise to find myself having a straight night’s sleep again.
I spent my staycation catching up with friends, watching a movie, having chocolate, shopping (or trying to anyway since I couldn’t find anything I needed to buy), having dinner and writing non work stuff.
I left the TV on all night, as I usually do when I’m alone in a hotel room. I woke up and changed the channel. I found the Filipino news story and it almost felt like I was in a hotel room in the Philippines. I opened the drapes to find I was still in Sydney.
A friend asked me what I hoped to get out of the staycation. It took me a moment to answer back, not because I didn’t want to sound like a selfish mother, but because I never really deeply thought about the reason.
Peace. I said.
It’s not to say that my life is that chaotic. I do only have one child and she is mostly an angel. I meant peace from responsibilities. I don’t have to take care of someone else but myself. I don’t have to be on guard so much to see if it’s time to feed her, bathe her, wipe her bottom, put her to bed and so on. These are basic needs of a child that the mother in me knows how to do. And they are not that hard. But the person in me just wants to have no responsibility. Even just for a day and night. I just wanted to have time to think about just my needs and not be on the clock.
The thing is, I also know I can only do this for one day and one night. I am very sure that if I stayed in this staycation mode for another day, I would be tearing my hair out – missing my child, missing my family, my husband’s hugs, my dogs’ excited greetings, even my always messy house. I do want to go back home – go back to juggling working from home with taking care of a child and managing the household all at the same time (basically juggling three full time jobs eh?). I like being busy but this pause is also needed. And it’s going to be once a year.
Staycation 2013 – Hilton, Sydney. Any sponsors?