- The funeral was good. Is there a good funeral? They didn’t expect so many people to be showing up. The live band was amazing, as expected. His fellow musos came together to honour him. My little girl understood that noppy was gone, that he was in heaven and that she wouldn’t see him again. But it didn’t’ really hit her until they were carrying the coffin out of the hall. She turned to me with a look on her face that I’ve never seen before. Sorrow. Such deep sorrow from a little girl who hasn’t even turned four. I sat in the empty venue cuddling her, comforting her, trying to get the pain out. How could she have understood all that when another five year old boy was oblivious to it all?
- I helped hubby and his brother clean up their dad’s music room. It was a really hard task that we have to continue when we go back there for Christmas. I did what I could do to support them. It made me think about the stuff people will have to go through when it is my turn to go. I think they’ll mostly find journals and volumes of my blog books.
- His death had so many positive results that he would have been happy about. Hubby and his brother are closer than ever, having conversations they should have had ages ago. My MIL and step MIL held hands as the coffin was being taken out, finally forging real peace between them. My little one and her brother’s brother (who is not her brother) had a great time together. I had great conversations with hubby’s ex wife, talking about things that really mattered – not just the superficial stuff. His death brought peace all around.
- There is a massive keyboard in our lounge room. One of my FIL’s good ones that hubby wanted to take home. The other day, hubby took out a book he got from his dad’s music room and said that if I ever wanted to learn how to play the piano, the book guaranteed I could learn it in a year. A light bulb turned on in my head. One of the things I have always wanted to learn as a child was to play the piano but because we were too poor for lessons and equipment, I couldn’t. I learned the guitar because it’s cheaper but I’ve given up on the piano. I’ve been given my second chance. I am scared but utterly excited. There is one song I started practicing when I was in highschool. Now there is a great chance I can actually finish it.
I imagine it’s a pretty awful time for you. What a beautiful legacy though if you do learn to play his keyboard.
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Thanks so much R! Just been focusing on finding more work at the moment, keeping busy.
What a difficult time. Glad you and hubby have supportive family around; it makes such a difference.
Good luck with the piano!
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Oh, K! Big hugs to you and your little girl!
But it’s so amazing to read about the positives.
I have a whole stack of sheet music if you ever want to photo copy some. A WHOLE stack!
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Why do you have so many music sheets? Do you play?? Miss you G!
Oh honey, I’m sorry. It was obviously a hard time for you and your family. I am happy that positives can be made out of the situation. I’m proud that you are going to try something new. I’ve alwasy wanted to learnt the piano too.
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Hi Penny, thanks hun, and sorry I haven’t visited your blog lately. Been on a slump a bit xx
Oh, don’t you worry about that. I know you’ve been going through a tough time. Just so you know though, A Mum in the Wild s on stand still. I’m finding it too hard to run two blogs, especially with WF4K doing so well.
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hugs kris. inara will surely miss him.