I woke up just a bit after 3am and couldn’t go back to sleep.
I’ve never been up before 5.30am for no reason. I like my sleep. Even after I became a mother, I found ways to sleep in until 9am, even 10am sometimes. I am not one of those who work late at night or very early in the morning. If I really have to, I might but the latest would be midnight and that’s it.
I like my sleep. Have I mentioned that already?
But if sleep eludes me, I am not one to lie in bed awake for no reason at all.
So today, I decided to get up and do some of the things in my to do list before dawn breaks.
I keep staring out the window, waiting for the sun to come up. But at the same time, I want the clouds to bring the rain. It’s been raining almost every day the last couple of weeks. It limits things we can do. And I know some people hate the rain and the grey clouds. But as much as I love the sunshine, I also love the rain. I love grey skies all day. I love that when I look out the window, I can’t tell what time it is because the sky hasn’t changed colour. I love the sound of the rain on my window.
I don’t want to analyse it too much. I just know I do love the rain. It brings out a lot more of my creativity than the sun, I think.
Lately, I’ve been trying to find the time to do everything on my list. “Maybe you should wake up earlier,” my little voice says. Nope. That bit I’m not compromising on.
For the most part, I have been able to do the things that need to be done. It’s the things I want to do that are getting set aside.
For instance, right now I have 10 articles on my list that needs to be written. Some can be written now while others need more information from people I’m waiting on. I know I need to work on these things now. They provide the family with a really good monthly income and I want to sustain it so I don’t have to go back to an office environment.
But at the same time, there is this personal project I want to keep working on – the other book I’ve started writing last year. I finished my second children’s book already (yay) and I’m waiting for some feedback from the two competitions I joined. If it doesn’t get picked up, I’ll self-publish it. The other project is a bigger one, much scarier one because it is bigger. And knowing my laziness to finish big projects (I can’t even finish knitting a cape because it takes too long), I am afraid that if I don’t keep at it, I’ll just dump it – which would be very unfortunate given I actually got real life feedback from a real life publisher. And the feedback wasn’t bad either. It was even open and hopeful, with some future possibilities.
I know, right? I should really keep at it. I do wonder how other working mums do it – juggle kids and work and personal projects. I wouldn’t mind hearing some tips – as long as it doesn’t compromise my sleeping habits.
So again I look outside the window and it’s looking grey. My heart skips a beat.
For me, The only excuse to get up before dawn is to go fishing or golfing.
I agree with you in the rain.
from FYBF
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Unfortunately, I do get up earlier to get some things done. It’s easier because I still feel fresh and energetic to do stuff on top of what I need to do in the office :p
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Agree with you about the rain and if you would be ever so kind to share your tips for sleeping in until 9am with children, that would be great!
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I co slept for ages so we slept in together for ages
Now I’m trying to see if I can do early mornings 
I’m with you.. I don’t do early mornings! But I have to get up around 6:00am every week day to get to work. Every morning I hit my snooze button at least twice and keep my eyes shut as long as possible. By Friday, I almost don’t function. I need my weekend sleep-ins to recuperate!
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I begrudgingly get up early in the morning (Have you noticed I can’t even make it to be the first linky on my OWN link-up ??!!!) but when I do, it feels pretty great because I feel a lot more productive.
That hour before the family wakes up is TRUE time to myself. It’s different from night time after I put the twinlets to bed and different from when they’re having a nap.
I know you probably didn’t intend to, I think you’ve inspired me to get up earlier again.
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I started the early walk today. Three times you said. Will keep you posted!
Yup, I’m with most of the others, waking up early works for me. I get up at 5am every morning, firstly to write my blog posts (now I have two write three for my two blogs) and so I can have my breakfast and a cup of tea in peace before I’m last on the agenda for the remainder of the day. I love my sleep but I love my quiet mornings better!
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I seem to constantly be wondering how other mums “do it”. You know, manage EVERYTHING, while I find that I’m sinking further and further underneath it all. That’s what I love about visiting blogs – you see that sometimes others are sinking too. The ups and the downs are shared
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You are so not alone, you know
I’m with you – I’d rather work a bit later at night and sleep in. Of course having a clone would make everything easier. Where’s my clone when I need it?
Because of sleeping late and waking up early in the morning.. here I am got a heavy head! Gosh1 I already took 3 paracetamols..
The only way I know what 5am looks like is because I’m still up from the night before. I am a night owl. If only the world worked to my hours.
I have no tips for you because I have the same questions as you.
Love & stuff
Mrs M
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You rock at it though. You guys are rockstars at great careers and raising tons of kids!